Wednesday, 29 December 2010

About moi, I remain clueless

I'm not too sure of where to start.


I've spent a couple of weeks this year, trying to capture my persona in a "personal statement", that you send to UCAS when applying to British Universities, but what is it that really defines me as me?

About me.
According to the world wide web, my somewhat peculiar name means "light" or "hazelnut", whatever that would mean. People in my surroundings have thought nicknames such as "litage", "snow white", "the legs", "scrambles" and "moomin" suitable. Litage is the fusion of "sabotage" and the last two letters of my first name, sabotage referring to my clumsiness. My ex boyfriend called me scrambles, as he did not think me capable of formulating proper sentences. The rest have been remarks on my appearance. Not sure where that leaves me though.



Fix You - Coldplay


I think most people view me as a pretty carefree, happy person. I will not disagree with the latter. I prefer to stay positive. Thinking I am carefree to the point of ignorance of naivety would however be a mistake. I might, at times, come out as a "speaker" rather than a "listener", but in fact, it is quite the reverse. I prefer absorbing and analysing my surroundings. I actually tend to do just that to the point of madness. That is why I have always wanted to turn to creativity as a sort of refuge for my thoughts to thrive.

About me.

I am both Swedish and Chilean, but neither nationality defines me. It is never sufficient being "a half".

I do not believe in racism. Perhaps it's when I see racism expressed that my "latino temperament" shows. I dislike generalisations, especially in the same context as narrow-mindedness. We all generalise, whether we like it or not, but it is SO important to try to keep one's mind open. Perhaps, that could define me. Trying at least, to keep my mind open.

About me.
To finish off, I am an extremely shy person. Is that maybe a Swedish trait when generalising? Many people would however disagree with my being shy, apparently, it doesn't really show too much. That might be because I am also a quite impulsive person. When I see something I want to do, it can come as a very powerful chock, which I cannot refuse. Being shy has brought about a quote which has become a central one in my life.



"To dare is to lose your foothold for an instance.
Not to dare is to lose yourself"

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